Walaal there is nothing to disprove God but there are plenty of indications of his existence. In the end this is the biggest question in life and it is about believe not necessarily about empirical knowledge, although our religion does not demand blind faith. Instead we are encouraged to reason and travel and experience the world and come to our own conclusion.
Arguably more often than not atheism's logical conclusion is nihilism and this will leave you without a definitive purpose, making everything relative, which can leave suicide as an easy option out of this dilemma for some.
Following the Deen on the other hand will give you a "why" to every "what/ how", it gives you solace and something to look forward to in the future beyond this life.
Be open-minded don't be absolute and final in denying Allah, because you feel you have been wronged, after all according to Islam life is a test.
Good and bad, we accept it all, either we are grateful or patient.
I don't want to downplay your struggles or want to be patronising, to a degree I have been where you are/ have been when I was a teenager (struggling, loosing loved-ones, but never really lost hope in Allah), thankfully with age comes a clearer perspective.
I just hope that you are still willing to ask meaningful questions about life and about your purpose which will lead you to be more humble and more accepting of your role in this vast universe
In sha Allah you will see there is a creator who cares about you, even though this entire universe does not mean anything to him when all is said and done.
Wallahi you are one of the funniest and among my favorite posters here, all I hope for is that you are more nuanced on such matters and everything else I leave to Allah and to yourself
haha...i hate their big ass eyez...there is no reason why japanese cartoon have big eyes
