An understanding wife can fill in the holes left in your personality. You might want to Add that onto your options of fixing the holes. It is by design that human beings require other people's help to prevent the keeling of their ships(personalities). No one is perfect. It is also our imperfections that produced a better world in some ways. Working on those imperfections can lead to something good. Love is one of those tools. Kindness, generosity, all of these and other good emotions/acts fill in the holes of imperfections people have.
I checked the test and it doesn't give all possible answers one can choose from if they aren't satisfied with the multiple choice list. Some answers required "may be". An example of that is if you would prefer Justice over Mercy. For me that depends on the situation. There is mercy in justice itself and the two can be combined instead of choosing one by default. Forgiveness is my default personality though I must sometimes deliver justice against my desire to forgive someone. Tests like these are narrow in their scope but can be useful.
You write good bro and love writing obviously. I read your posts in commute since I use the public transit half of the way.
I don't love writing as per se, I love thought experiments. I prefer writing to speaking though cuz I have time to formulate my thoughts into paper and make it complete so it represents my thoughts properly where-as in speaking I can get all mumbled and jumbled or my thoughts aren't as clearly expressed. I also like ARTS even though I can't do it personally but it's another way people display their thoughts.
I personally could sit there all day just arguing with myself different aspects of a certain topic and then looking at nature and previous results in history and coming to some sort of conclusion in my mind but as new knowledge is learned my conclusions will update itself unlike religious folks they end were their conclusion ends regardless of new knowledge. I am not a closed book myself, I am an open book with no full stop anywhere but only !!! and to be quite honest I don't think I will ever get to a stage in life where there will be a full stop, I am not confident but it's far ahead of the ppl who already have a full stop.
I am in a stage of my life right now where I am actually defining myself and to be quite honest, I have never been in this territory before and it has been 'tough' but a very rewarding experience, I am still not done yet but I have to create my own blueprint for myself not societies because that has failed me and has left a hole in me that I never connected with and felt I was living a fake life and there was this deep sense of emptiness due to it.
So I am creating my own blue-print and uploading it to my 'brain' so it is in-line with something it can actually connect to and relate too rather then someone elses or society blue-print which hasn't been useful for me as the results in my life I feel could be a-lot better then it is now.
Areas that I am reviewing including morality what's good and bad and right or wrong. I have come to the conclusion, if I am not having nightmares or losing sleep over it, it doesn't effect me regardless what the act is. So yes I will lie to get a job cuz I have a 'need' which is to survive and will I lose sleep over it no, so I will plan that I don't get caught only but morally I feel no problem. Same goes for theft or killing if the need arises I will not lose sleep over it. My morality is 'bendable' and I need to experience it to decide how it impacts me regardless if it's good or bad. This is the first conditioning they do society they define what's good and bad to you and sometimes u disconnect and say hey I don't relate to that.
I am exploring faith aspects, I know it's important because faith is hope, early humans couldn't just survive relyin on food and materials or people, cuz those things can disappear any time. Weather can change, drought, food shortage, conflict, tough times always appear and people have to some sort of hope that better days are coming. What that hope can be anything but faith is a big one, family, culture, tradition, memories, etc non physical things that can eventually disappear. I have looked at myself when im in tough times and if there is no sense of hope things will get better it will be difficult for me to make it in life at all.
Then their is the death aspect and I prefer being prepared, I don't like suprises and I don't feel the western method of ignoring it will make it better or the attitude of 'we will see when we get there'. I am not that type of person, I want to prepare. Visit hospices and here ppl view who are terminally ill, history, religion, etc. I don't prepare from a non threatening perspective which is atheism, that's just deep sleep, no need to prepare for that, it's really what if it isn't and that is the side I prepare for.
Diplomacy skills and learning how I like to be treated and when I respond well to people will help me determine how I approach others now. I am on a learning curve sxb, but laugh or dont laugh I am not sticking to the same path of the past where I know the results I got. I just can't do it cause it's pointless and I know the result.
Defining real life goals not just I want a new car and it gets boring after a month or a house or a family or a wife. Things that get boring after a while, isn't my life goal. I defined my life goal already which I relate to and it's travel and freedom so that's the fuel in my vehicle to keep me moving. I will sit next to the person at work knowing the work isn't why I am here, it's only answering a financial aspect that is needed for the travel, hence motivation and fuel to keep persevering. I will exercise cuz not that I want a nice body but cuz I dont wanna be in a wheelchair when my time to travel is up. Same with mental health and so forth.
I am looking at happiness and what it means to me and not what society defines it as, this has me in loops already, u know a killer might be happy killing why we telling him that isnt happiness, we should accommodate it and say hey join the army or something. I am still reviewing this.
Failure this is a big one for me, I have overcome this with the simple fact 'I looked at the failures' in my life and I don't sit there regretting it like I regret the things I never attempted to do cause I will always ponder what the outcome will be and hence REGRETS trumps FAILURE. So when I fail, ill be like at least u won't regret it, which STINGS like a .
Fear this one is a big one for me also, I have no answer yet for this but I know where it comes from for me and it's due to a lack of control and knowing what lies ahead. It is regarding death, or an idea I want to see thru, or something I want to do but I can't see into the future and therefore there is 'fear'. It's a lack of control that causes my fear, if I could control the future, there would be no fear.
I am working on fear and happiness and diplomacy and setting that up for myself so this BLUEPRINT of the DOCTOR, IS BAD ASS and I can relate to it.