lmao I sound like a monster
But honest to God she shoved me first and was talking to me like I was shit and I was like lower your tone with me because she kept screaming at me and i was like fck that so I slapped her across the face to shut her up and like magic, it worked. Like I'm usually so nice to her, I buy her everything but she treats me like such shit, maybe I'm not sorry after all, idk why I felt so bad yesterday.
Then my dad has the nerve to lecture me on why I shouldn't hit people and he even asked "have i ever hit you", I wanted to say yes you have, plenty of times but I didn't want to get hit again
I mean, I blame myself but I also blame my parents, how else would I have learned that hitting people is okay.
Like honestly, "spanking" never worked on me, I still hold it against my parents to this day, probably will until i die
Man i sound like a little
But I did ask her why didn't she hit me back later that night and she just ignored me, like at least defend yourself if somebody hits you even.
Now I think about it, she is a miskeen, she's never hit me once out of all the fights we've gotten into
she hit me once though, she was fighting with my little brother and I was trying to break the fight up and out of the blue she just fucking lands a huge slap on my face and I was so shocked like wallahi I almost started crying, then I was like omg I want to beat the shit out of her but she locked herself in the toilet until hooyo came home and my mum didn't even tell her off, she was like
"I don't give a f*ck"
And in my head I was like
well damn, f*ck u too hooyo, like the wasteman i am but I was so angry, why did I get hit for no reason, why didn't my mum tell her off.
damn why did i write so much
