This will be interesting. I used to be into the occult, and numerology. I loved the idea of numbers being another language. It was interesting to me how the number 7 for example resembled the thinker, and how each letter of your name could add up to a number that would in turn predict your destiny. Sadly I didn't know I was diving into the world of the jinn.
As I kept studying numerology, I ended up drifting away from it due to it getting boring, and I started embracing the idea of letting life happen by itself. Fortunately I went to Kenya during a break from University, and met great Muslims who were brilliant, and smart. They weren't your average sheiks who didn't know anything about science, and life for millennials. These guys were full blown PhD degree having Muslims who knew the millennial life style, and they got me back into Islam, and I never looked back after that Alhamdulilah.
But as I continued being a practicing Muslim, and gaining more knowledge on the Deen. I would have nightmares at night of black dogs, and tall ugly super non human dark people. I would wake up each night at 2am, and would feel like there was a presence near me trying to communicate. By that time I learned Ayat Kursi, and it was Ramadan. One night when I woke up at the same time after the dream, I went to the living room to pray 2 rikah. After I was done praying, something whispered "why did you leave us?". I was shocked, but not scared. I learned to not fear the jinn from all the lectures I watched. I didn't answer back, instead I made Dua, and this time in anger it yelled "Allah will not help you!".
This time I got a little scared, but I just continued to ignore it. Then I heard a big boom coming from the wall beside me. This time I couldn't ignore it, so I turned on some Al baqarah, and started reading the Quran I knew how to read. The noise, and whispering went down, and then it was time for fajr. After Fajr I started making sincere Dua for Allah to help me, and never let me go. The room all of a sudden became filled with light, and my heart felt nothing, but positivity. It's a feeling I will never be able to explain, but it was better than any feeling I ever felt before. When I went to sleep I immediately had a dream where I was still in bed, but there was a light so bright coming down from the roof, and this light ended up quickly filling the room with all of it's light till the whole room was so covered in light you couldn't see anything but the light. The feeling it brought was so immense. It was a completly different feeling from anything we as humans can feel. It was better than the feeling of love. I couldn't even control my body. It was moving by itself close to where the light was brightest, and I found myself saying Hi. Then the light had no voice, but I could feel it saying "Make a wish".
I don't know why but I wished for happiness, and then I woke up. I still don't know why I wished for happiness, and I still can't explain that dream. Am I happy? I feel just like any other normal human. But I think my wish will come true in the afterlife In Shaa Allah. I told my sheik at my local masjid what had happened, and he told me that during Ramadan ppl get dreams like that, and those are blessings. It was definitely an epic time for me spiritually. The jinn on the other hand ended up possessing my relative to get to me, but that's a story for another time. Sorry for the essay.
Numerology in of itself is not Haram because the quran has numerological expressions and miracles. And there are foundations of the importance of numbers in the sunnan of dhikr and there are also numerical significance to varouses huroof verses and asmaul husna
Okay brothere
No it isn't Haram. It's only haram when used to predict your future, or destiny.
Say wallahi
