Sad to hear this bro but at least you didn't watch did you? It's more acceptable to fap once in a while but to never watch . Fapping four times in a row is very unhealthy and causes addiction too. Hopefully all your progress isn't lost.I am sorry to say i have lost the battle, i have had one hell of a wanking session after 6 months of NOFAP. I blame drugs.
5 months to be more accurate then i spent a month with my wife who lives in another country.
On my way back to dubai i was in another country on business and i had allot of work to do so i hardly left my hotel room for most of the day.
I was distracted and not motivated and was procrastinating so i took a modafinil pill and an hour later i felt the effects as i got into the zone, time dilated and i realized that i finished 3 days of work in just 5 hours and i didnt notice the passage of time.
It was midnight and i was both hungry and wide awake and full of energy, so i thought a nice walk and some nightlife would put me to sleep.
finally found a nice bar with live music and food, so i sat back and enjoyed myself.
Soon i was getting bored i dont drink so i was drinking mocktails and i was on my phone.
Found myself on my usual websites and forums, somnet, Sufficentvelocity and spacebattles and this one just lurking.
A group of women sat next to my table and i made eye contact with them and smiled, as i moved a little out of their way to let them through, as it was a crowded and small place.
After about 10 minutes i get asked where are you from , and i give them the usual etc etc,
then they tell me to join them since i look bored,
We have a good conversation , they were facinated by me as i was in a country where few black people travel , i was exotic,
there was good banter , jokes etc and they all spoke reasonably good english which was surprising.
I was observing them like i normaly do with people and trying to figure out about them through observation alone but there was a warning light in the back of my mind, and an alarm that was getting louder and louder.
At first i thought maybe they are prostitutes? or maybe they want to mugg me later, a little paranoia is healthy and i always trust my instincts.
As i was thinking about how to extract myself and leave politely as they asked if i wanted to go to another party.
Then i caught a wiff , i have a very good sense of smell, i am a bit of a dog really, olfactory input .
told them i have to go home as i have a flight in a few hours ( i fly out 24 hours later), but i would love to buy any weed off you if you have any.
Lucky i got a dime back worth for free as i paid for their drinks earlier.
Off to my hotel room, its a 15 mins walk , but it takes me more than 30mins because i am paranoid and always take the roundabout route and double back in case i am followed.
Its 3am and i am full of energy and awake , i should have taken half a pill instead but no worries , a couple of joints should help i think.
Its half an hour later i am in bed listening to music and enjoying myself , when i have a massive hard on and an overwhelming urge to rub one out.
I guess little abdi was furious and wanted me to bang those chicks, at least one was definitely willing.
Usually i am centered and in full control so i dont know why i lost control.
I believe its the combination of modafinil and cannabis,
I was wanking furiously like a deranged weasel, with both mary palmer and yusra.
must have done it like 3 times in a row and i still felt capable of number 4 , but i stopped myself and fell asleep.
the hotel concierge later with a knowing smile told me that he heard i had allot of fun last night,
and he asked if the girl i was with was hot..
I told him yes, with big breasts , i was too embarrassed to tell him it was just me ....
Damn it,
heed my warnings do not mix drugs, the side affects could be fucked up..
... Day 3-10 were the hardest.
