I don't engage in nor support such a thing, no different to when you were a christian then guided, shirk/kufr is the worst sin one can commit and if you die upon it you will never be forgiven for it.It's Haram to fornicate. For a religious man you seem lost. I'm not out of control and I'm a bit disappointed I didn't get put into my place more.
I like a dominant man.
Abayo I have a MA degree, it is very arduous. I'm 5'7, 120 pounds regularly (underweight for my height) I wittled down to 107 pounds during grad school. I couldn't sleep (had to take pills), I forget to eat when I'm stressed (a form of disordered eating) so I was jittery all the time and my hair started falling out in clumps. Alhumdillah I graduated on time, but a lot of my cohort didn't. Some even had to withdraw cause they plagiarized their thesis!I'm going to graduate level work. If it was mere undergrad I could raise a child doing it.