Yep, my parents are sending me back to Boston
Before I was born: my Somalilander abo went to the US
Boston after finishing his masters and while in the process of looking for a job a friend of him called him and told him that his relative is looking for a tutor, my dad accepted, my mom(being a descendent of the same qabil as my father) was the relative that needed a tutor then after many events I was born, a little be4 the 9/11
Long short story:my abo thought that it was better if I was raised in Shithole Arabia rather than the land of the free. Me losing my imaan is a direct result of
metaphor being beaten over the head with a terrible interpretation of islam.
Where I have to live my life as nothing more than a ceebعورة or evilفاحشة to the مجتمعcommunity just because a was born with a cheap sheath, was born with no value in the eyes of modern day Islam NOT THE EYES OF ALLAH
This is why اماني ضعف
my faith is starting to fade because I can't believe that this is the true face of islam.
And it's hard to believe its not when you have shiekhs issuing fatwas like
- A woman is biologically mentally unstable(with their proof being a certified HADITH)
- Women are too noble to order themselves to drive themselves around, they must beg thiers male relativeslave or husband to drive them (with thier proof being a QURANIC VERSE THAT I READ MYSELF)
Can u blame me
For losing faith in myself as a muslim
Becuz I believe in the same abrahimic book that they do
I WILL NEVER lose faith in my creator or my creator's chosen ones or his angels or his books.
I am a muslim after all even with iman starting to fade away
Even when a large number of my muslim brothers and sisters see me as nothing more than a
عبدة قذرة
امرأة سوداء قبيحة
سحرة أفريقيا
شيطانة سوداء مثل لون الخرة
But Idk me anymore, Idek WHY WAS I EVEN BORN
What's left of this world that I'm born in
What I do I live for anymore
What is there to live for