One thing is for sure. We are all going to die and once we are dead, it does not matter if we had legs or hands when we lived but what we accomplished. From your profile, you are better looking than 90% of the people in the world and look young. It's likely you may not even get what you are scared of getting and have 60-70 years left. You could do so much for your family, our people, and the world in that time. You could be a legend that people name their kids after. Many Kings, Queens, and Prophets had diseases and disabilities but they are legends who shaped the world. You could be the one. Actually you are the one because there is one you and if you even think of changing that fact, people will not truly understand you and remember you for your suicide. If you let Qadr/Destiny decide your fate while you tie your camel and put trust in Allah, I promise you will go far on your legs or whatever Allah has given you. Walaalo you are you and we will always be there for you in Somalinemo.