What are you own morals, you are talking like you are world renown philosopher. Just say I got brainwashed and I rather fit in with my white non Muslim friends. It easier to fit into society then hold your own firm belief.It’s scary how easily women get brainwashed.Girly should leave the religion, I did the exact same thing. Once you realise your own morals, beliefs & thoughts don’t fit into a religion, it’s the best to leave it after all.