Can’t lie, I had a weird fixation with white guys and wanting to marry one. I think it mainly stemmed from going to an all girl school where it was predominantly white. So hanging out with them, and intermixing with other white people was pretty normal and it became rooted. However, now I wouldn’t and that’s because I’ve realised that upholding culture is important and considering the way things are right now it’ll only get further diluted. Cringe now that I look back, so perhaps time will tell for you.