If Allah is not realSome say you have an obligation to do dawah. I'm being nice by providing you with an opportunity. What sort of Muslim turns away a potential convert like that. I asked about how you knew what Allah wants.
Is that too much to ask? I'll be fair to you. It's fine to be unsure about your faith. I wouldn't want to take the joy of fasting away from you. You can still fast if you wanted to I suppose. For secular reasons like feeling empathy for the poor if that's something you get out of fasting. As a matter of fact I think increasing your empathy that way is somewhat noble.
Then tonight I want you to invoke Allah's curse on yourself that he prevents you from ever being happy until you come to islam