I pray to Allah that I fall in love wallahi. I have never felt anything except lust can you imagine trying to hook up a girl you're with, with a next man just so that she don't get attached. I remember one girl telling me that she feels sorry for me & I started laughing then me being suspicious & thinking has this poisoned my food so I asked her to clarify then to my surprise she said you will never be able to love a girl in your life, deep down I was shook cause I knew there was some truth to her statement cause I never did love anyone thus far. Sometimes I listen to love songs & watch romantic movies trying to search for love if only for just few seconds but to no avail. I get bored with a chick if she ain't feeding my appetite as a red blooded man, I keep conversation mediocre & skip pillow talk forget affection all I know is penetration, to those who have been in love wallahi you should count yourself being amongst the fortunate, imagine talking & being around a girl for years then trying to hook her up with a friend, sharing is caring old habits die hard.
Sometimes I pretend that I'm in love & listen to love songs but as soon as the track is done the first thing on my mind is head