Don't give up Allah is Al Latif kind to his slaves and understand what you are gowing through and blessed you to be a muslim when you could have been a mushrikeen. This suggests Allah loves you and want to see you in jannah and all you have to do is practice the religion he made you into. Step by step think of all the things Allah have done for you such as created you from nothing, saved you from death, you are not in poverty etc and compare your blessings to others who were/are less fortunate than you. Al wadud the all loving love those who do good even if it's little such as giving charity praising allah fulfilling your prayers etc. Remember the doors to forgiveness will always be opened to you as long as death hasn't reached you and that Allah is always there for you so you have to do is open the door and enter. If you need any more help please message me