That’s right, an omnipotent and omniscient being put a seal on my hearing and heart purposefully to lead me astray, surely this being is also the most merciful and most forgiving too - such a contradiction would be nothing unexplainable to the zealous Muslims.
Your actions led you astray once again with the self victimisation.
Seals can be lifted.
think about it for a second how the life pathes of our different ideoglogies
Your ideology
Just feed your animalistic desires
Any time your innate fitrah tries to break through try and drown it with cope.
my ideology
Try to get fit and healthy
Try to find companionship
Try to avoid short term dopamine for long term results.
Even if i was to believe your way of life i would rather follow my way.