Mr @Wervelwind , I believe we haven't spoken and bear with me sxb , I am not here to wage a war, I come in peace , but how many threads related to this topic have you posted?
I believe the problem stems from there , realistically I don't think it's plausible that you'll find conclusive answers on any anonymous forum hence the probability are likely the odds.
But as a brother I will at least shed some light and give an advice to the many brothers and sisters out there.
Don't limit yourselves.
Interact more often , I may understand these unfortunate times like the pandemic may bring unnecessary frustrations but once it disappears , resurface to the realms of the world once again.
The ocean is vast and unforseen ,sxb , do not just look at the river or lakes.
You have to explore like Robinson Crusoe.
The world is a bigger place kkkkk @The Inquisitive , everyone is unique in their own way , you'll discover your traits and personality as you grow up , time flies sxb , don't let it waste , what's stopping you from getting settled kkkkkk