Struggles

[SOULSEARCHING]

What struggles have you been? through

For me it will be being self conscious about my body and weight.
Back in my school days i was really skinny Compared to my peers around me, so I wanted to get big like them lol. I decided to eat more than I usually can. I would buy fries, chocolate cookies, mud cakes , pizza , sodas everyday. By the end of my school year I noticed I gained weight and I thought it was sexy

It was until my big brother made a comment about my weight when we had a family gathering and he said it infront of everyone I have gained so much weight, this hurt me loool I felt a stab in the heart. I was 38kgs at the start and became 50kgs I was still Skinner then those African American girls and Hispanics but I decided to lose my weight and reduced the amount of food I was eating , basically starving myself. this was the dumbest move I did. I started to vomit when I ate something so small, I couldn't finish eating a plate with two spoonfuls of rice.
Just having food in my mouth gave me nausea/vomiting. It was the hardest time of my life especially watching everyone around me enjoying their food.

I didn't see a doctor for this I kept it a secret.. but I started to train myself by eating small and gradually eating more.it had worked but still till this day I have episodes where I get nauseous after eating.


Hope you all enjoyed my life story

 

[Lostbox]

One day, I was ill. Someone brought my favourite pie when I woke up. I took the first bite then vomited all over it.

 

[SOULSEARCHING]

One day, I was ill. Someone brought my favourite pie when I woke up. I took the first bite then vomited all over it.

That's like when someone eats the food you hide , depression kicks in.

 

[Yukon_Niner]

I had a series of shit days where I couldn't cope with the studies I had to do. I think I was having a particularly shitty day because I dropped a burger I bought and just felt dejected, I decided to head home and accidentally dropped my keys in mud while basically at the door. I tried to get my mind off it by playing rainbow 6 but instantly got headshotted as soon as it began and I couldn't make shaah because the tea bags ran out.

I just thought f*ck life and went to bed

 

[land owner]

All my life I had to fight!

 

[Calaf]

There was a day i could never forget due to its struggles
One day, I left my house in Skudai on route to Woodlands ( Malaysian- Singapore Border)
The traffic was bad and only 2 checkpoints was open
Once I got to the gate I realized I left my passport and my Student ID back in my house, which was 45 Min with Heavy traffic
I had to go back and return nearly 1 hour later.
Still there was heavy traffic and my first lesson was 1 hour later
I managed to get though the border and to my session with 5 Min remaining.
Once I got to my class, I was told it was cancelled due to a seminar in another campus that we all had to attend
They provided a shuttle and guess what, No space for me since I was last one boarding. I had to take Public transport
Delays after Delays after Delays
I got there 10 Min late!
I lost my meal card, had to buy, I forgot my coat at home since it was hot, yet it was raining badly. Football training was cancelled!
My phone ran out of charge.
I had decided to return home by plane, due to something going on at the border
My flight got delayed, I nearly missed my connection and once I landed back at Skudai, I was stopped for some inspection!
I got home at 2 AM next and I had to leave at 5 AM to go back to school
It was a hefty day I could never forget!

 

[SOULSEARCHING]

There was a day i could never forget due to its struggles
One day, I left my house in Skudai on route to Woodlands ( Malaysian- Singapore Border)
The traffic was bad and only 2 checkpoints was open
Once I got to the gate I realized I left my passport and my Student ID back in my house, which was 45 Min with Heavy traffic
I had to go back and return nearly 1 hour later.
Still there was heavy traffic and my first lesson was 1 hour later
I managed to get though the border and to my session with 5 Min remaining.
Once I got to my class, I was told it was cancelled due to a seminar in another campus that we all had to attend
They provided a shuttle and guess what, No space for me since I was last one boarding. I had to take Public transport
Delays after Delays after Delays
I got there 10 Min late!
I lost my meal card, had to buy, I forgot my coat at home since it was hot, yet it was raining badly. Football training was cancelled!
My phone ran out of charge.
I had decided to return home by plane, due to something going on at the border
My flight got delayed, I nearly missed my connection and once I landed back at Skudai, I was stopped for some inspection!
I got home at 2 AM next and I had to leave at 5 AM to go back to school
It was a hefty day I could never forget!

That's insane, didn't they notify you that the class would be canceled?

 

[Yukon_Niner]

All my life I had to fight!

Tuna and tomato sauce on baasto or tuna and beans, the struggle was real wallahi.

 

[Calaf]

That's insane, didn't they notify you that the class would be canceled?

Nope, The professor was invited to speak at this seminar last minitue and we was not told till the lesson was supposed to start!
For those living there, it was nothing, just a quick trip on the MRT or take the shuttle provided by the Uni. For everyone except me, it was a free fun day.
Me and my dysfunctional ass managed to missed the shuttle due to a lack of space and was made to take a train with a delay due to "Unforeseen reasons"

 

[Luciddreamer]

daily emotional abuse, imo worse than physical
poverty and the shame it accompanies
my own guilt with how i treated my siblings and mother
nihilism and boredom, addiction with video games and weed
isolation, loneliness
anxiety, depression, sosial anxiety

but all this sht ive been through has made me into a more responsible person and for that im grateful

 

[Mahacagalla]

So you had an eating disorder.