Ofc I always thank Allah. Some people have told me how bad the civil war is which alhamdulillah my family didnt experience since we all left before 1991. The war should never have happened and may allah grant the fallen jannatul firdaws and anyone who is alive today may they be given justice bi’ithnillah.
i feel disconnected

sorry for the rant but i dont feel fully western nor do I feel fully somali. Im wafting in between the 2 like a nomad.
as bad as the west is, alhamdulillah for it. I cant even complain of racism because if the natives were cunsuri somalis instead of cunsuri white people, I wouldve been living basically jahannam on earth. I like the diversity of the west and the myriad of opportunities. I was really blessed in that regard.
i still cannot shake off the fact what if? What if somalia was doing great? Would I be living there today? What if the war didnt happen? What if siad barre didnt fall? So much questions no more answers.
i pray for my nation everyday i pray for everyone from djibouti to lamu to babile. May Allah grant our people peace forget politics.