Lol wallahi I'm laughing but believe me when I tell you, you ain't the only 1, misfortunate things happened in a short period of time in my life..only person who really had my back was hoyo...damn near became homeless but alhamdulilah things worked out, since that day cut nearly everyone off (including relatives) did things on my J's it gets hard when u see people going holiday with their mandem or people going weddings, having a lit time and that cos u don't affiliate or mix with people like that because you haven't met the right people YET...my uncle once told me your lucky if you get 2 good friends in this life...being alone just gives you more time to concentrate on your grind and Improve your life!!! Idk about you bro but me personally I'd rather have NO friends to have FAKE friends and not to sound sentimental or like a preacher but your coffin only comes with 1 space if you get sick can no1 share that illness with you, your stuck with it alone, inshallah keep searching and you'll find good companionship (hopefully) keep your mum happy, pray ur 5 a day and get on your grind to keep yourself busy and focused would be my advice...bless from your neighbourhood somali hustler looools