Every time the reality of my life sinks in, I feel a huge wave of sadness and I feel like such a loser at the game of life. I wish at times I could become an ascetic an devote my life to prayer so I wouldn't have to think about everything else.
i know life can sometimes be a big pain in the ass for all of us. Even for the most accomplished people out there. I don't mean to come across as insensitive but the true test of a persons ability to accomplish is to come back up after things don't go as planned. If you look at some of the most successful people out there you will see them failing,dropping out several times before they make it big. That's because they have accepted struggles and failure as an inescapable part of life and a critically important part of any successful life.
Depression is very serious , life will be much worse for you if you dvelve in it and you might end up going down a terrible road. If it gets too much the best thing is to try to look for help, maybe talk to your friends, family ,doctor or school guidance counselor.
By all means do not compare yourself to others and the most important thing is to have some hopes for the future.