I have an aversion to men because of my upbringing. I am afraid of men negatively reacting to my rejection when they buy me things. It happens on occasion and they can react so differently. Sometimes they are humble but on bizarre occasions they can snap as if I troubled and inconvenienced them. It happened tonight and I didn’t know how to react so I made up the boyfriend excuse.
I’m afraid because I am naive when it comes to men. I have some experience dealing with them but ultimately I am still naive because I am too guarded.