Feenin For A Cigarette Has Me Moving Like A Junkie.....

Arma

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Currently trying to quit smoking....for the gazillionth time. Not had one today, and greatly fighting the urge to pop to the shops for a pack of smokes......the desire was so strong, that I literally went to my balcony and starting skimming through my ashtrays for cigarette butt's, that has some tobacco left over.....found a couple, which gave me a few tokes.

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I curse the day, I started smoking. Quitting is gonna take the life out of me.
 
I used common lip tobacco in late elementary and stopped in late high school. Quitting was not an easy process in the first months (tried several times before that with less conviction). The first thing I did was to stop buying completely and phased out by getting some from friends now and then, and eventually, the uneasy feeling of missing something was gone. I remember while trying to quit, sitting and not being able to imagine better lived days ahead experience-wise. And that's what addiction does to you. It makes you feel as though you forget the natural disposition in life where you're not dependent on it because tobacco becomes part of your lived experience. It's like what they say about food addictions. If it is part of a specific behavioral pattern, it is more problematic than if you just do it randomly, not contingent on specific daily habits that come with it.

When a long time went by, I could retake tobacco just to try as I had kicked the habit to the degree I would not relapse—and lo-and-behold—it did not t even feel good anymore, it was like my body rejected it. A nice thing. All that is ancient history now.

I remember the first time I tried it; I became sick and dizzy. The tolerance I had was very low since I was a kid.:mjlol:
 

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