Alright, I'm totally not trying to offend, but I get the impression (gleaned from multiple posts) that you're very physically attracted to Cadaan women... but you now think that you're incompatible due to deen and all that comes with it; and that you now realise that you'll never truly be accepted by their families.
You now want a xalimo to settle down with; I know that this is very bold of me and I sincerely apologise in advance for overstepping, but I truly believe no one should play second fiddle to anyone else and that's precisely the unhappy fate your future xalimo wife would be forced to live, if this is the case.
People should go with their
true (honest) preference instead of making someone feel less or a second choice due to ethnic loyalty or obligation; some white girls have accepted Islam, so
Again, I'm so very sorry if I've overstepped. Please forgive me, walaal.