Wabari
Wabari Guleed Liban
For those who don’t know, watching gore is when you voluntarily view real life videos of people dying, getting brutally injured, or otherwise ceasing to function as humans, usually in the worst ways imaginable.
I think I might be addicted. And honestly, I don’t even think it’s a bad thing. I feel like watching this kind of stuff regularly has actually helped me. I’ve become more focused, less emotional, and weirdly more appreciative of life.
It started when a friend casually showed me a video of a cartel beheading, no warning, just handed me his phone. I was shocked, yeah. But also kind of curious afterwards? It was surreal.
A couple weeks later I found a site with more videos. I clicked one. Then another. Then five. Then I found myself eating while watching someone’s head come off with a kitchen knife and I didn’t flinch. Not even a blink. Just thought, “Damn. That knife’s sharp as a mf.”
At this point, I’ve seen things I probably shouldn’t have. But I feel calm. Centered. Some people journal. I watch someone get bisected by a train and it puts things into perspective.
Like, why would I stress over anything when there’s a guy in Brazil getting disassembled with a hammer for stealing a phone? Perspective matters.
And if I’m being honest, I feel sharper. More emotionally regulated. Less reactive. Almost enlightened, even.
If anything, I think more people should try it. Not like, a lot. But just enough to remind themselves what life really is, fragile, sudden, and extremely rated R.
What y’all think though?
I think I might be addicted. And honestly, I don’t even think it’s a bad thing. I feel like watching this kind of stuff regularly has actually helped me. I’ve become more focused, less emotional, and weirdly more appreciative of life.
It started when a friend casually showed me a video of a cartel beheading, no warning, just handed me his phone. I was shocked, yeah. But also kind of curious afterwards? It was surreal.
A couple weeks later I found a site with more videos. I clicked one. Then another. Then five. Then I found myself eating while watching someone’s head come off with a kitchen knife and I didn’t flinch. Not even a blink. Just thought, “Damn. That knife’s sharp as a mf.”
At this point, I’ve seen things I probably shouldn’t have. But I feel calm. Centered. Some people journal. I watch someone get bisected by a train and it puts things into perspective.
Like, why would I stress over anything when there’s a guy in Brazil getting disassembled with a hammer for stealing a phone? Perspective matters.
And if I’m being honest, I feel sharper. More emotionally regulated. Less reactive. Almost enlightened, even.
If anything, I think more people should try it. Not like, a lot. But just enough to remind themselves what life really is, fragile, sudden, and extremely rated R.
What y’all think though?
