I know I am in no man's land but I am hoping I survive it, just because my intention isn't to become gaal but to escape these intrusive thoughts.
Another question I can ask is why does satan exist? I mean he is responsible for many people going astray right, so why even create him to begin with? Allah not punish me for saying this, but doesn't the whole thing seem like it's.....?

Also if satan is to blame, why should we be punished man?
Every answer I come across only raises more questions.
I think my only solution that works is just to ignore everything and continue praying and doing all the things a muslim is expected of. I am not satisfied with any answer given, either on here or by a shaikh.