Afrax I got quite unwell for a while when I came back from Mogadishu(undiagnosed obviously) but I shut out the world, studied in my own way and the Somali Moryan way of Western material, I also would remember all the red eyed schemes they were doing back then and planning for iyo wixi badeli laha(jumping on board the next gravy train).
I try to tell ppl Mogadishu when I was there in its darkest time was nothing like how the western world depicts it, I was there, hence I knew something wrong with Western world, doubt sowed and I just isolated.
Yes there was no govt, no schools, no police, courts, or anything state like, but it was still quite civil niyahow and only skirmishes over criminal enterprises which were various(checkpoints, airports, the big port was off topics for all clans fearing a huge edge), red eyed schemes in disorder projects globally and ordered projects(somalinimo and nation state), using western n Middle East as gateways to slowly poison ppl thru various means to facilitate a slow.crumble and use their edge(experience) while the victim has no real preparation for it.
But anyways when I came back sxb everyone in my life was just a transaction to me either their helping me in my goals to where I want to be or im being paid well while growing to the goals I want and then total isolation from anyone and everyone. It was later on where I had a psychotic break possibly due to all that.
I realized their advice from.those days that saved my life in that hell also and not to be nacas like most of them are mentally ill. I got in tune with a very dark force who I call hell, it was my eyes were red, my head on fire, I was seeing horrific things but concealing it due to my abtiyaal upbringing.
Anyways I accepted it as if God wants u in hell who r u to say otherwise, things started to gradually get better then, I cut a deal with iblis and satan(darkness like the dark sky at nite and angels are just like a few sprinkle of stars a minority in evil universe). Yeah we all want the javkpot and diamond stars but I accepted Satan and he even told me hell is named after Al.hawiyah like the real one sxb not these little scare mongering shit by mainstream religion. I told him when I die I don't wanna die a coward only and I wanna die laughing my ass off at the ride and to put me in a Hilton in hell not around lil lowly jinn class, I said I don't even wanna buried on earth but burn me in a fire on earth and let my smoke join the jinn world but as the king of jinns.
, I met some of their folks bro(insane asylum), just very impulsive clan(fudeed yihin) by nature(naabnaabs type) kinda like U throw a bone (hilibna Kuma yaalo) and their chasing it(secession), wa culaysyo dhinaca kale loo raray. Their just known as the clowns in hell(the asylum settings) by others there also, u need to bring everything U got in those asylums(U no longer among humanity so anything can be experimented on U), while their just singing songs n shit n drug use not knowing your life is on the line here(adaa miiska saaran Dee my moryan hat comes by default then).
