If I were to be completely honest, everyday feels like a chore and I don’t feel happy anymore and haven’t for years. Sure, every once and while when I might feel good for a few hours but my constant state has grown to just be sadness and overthinking everything to the point I just want to be asleep forever. People don’t enjoy my company and I don’t either as I’m just a shell. I would never kill myself because it will would crush my mother but at the same time I feel like I stopped living and or was never living to begin with. Everyone says I have so much potential and am always told I’m the good smart girl, that I feel it fueled self destructive behavior to cope with not feeling like I could fill the plate and now it’s all coming crashing down. I don’t even know why I’m posting this, but I just wanted to say this at 2am of all times and wanted to talk to see if any other Somalis felt this way or do so. I honestly don’t even care to create a anon account because it just mimics the facade I put up in real life of pretending to be someone I’m not. I’m just wondering if anyone cares to share their stories, and emotions as I feel we focus so much on the group as a whole that we forget about the individuals. How are you? Do you feel okay? Tell me and I’m hear you listen as much as you listened to me here. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I’m only a reply away.