I am venting...

[Basra]

Modern Society has corrupted my natural identity of self. My authentic individuality is disturbed by civilization process of the western world. I feel like here in the western metropolitan, i am not allowed to be myself. I am forced to pick-up polite, acceptable traits to fit in. My vanity has increased into an enormous Ego, and finally into a full blown narcissist. I also blame the literature books i have read since childhood. It has given me a sense of a reality that is distorted. I have no doubt my anxiety is a result of all those hysteria books i read of aristocratic women fainting upon being shocked. The idea of fiction scriptures turning my personality from pure, authentic brilliant child into a brilliant narcissist troll is disgusting. Nevertheless, in the end i am left with the question:


WHO AM I????


The question could be difficult to find an answer to, if you peel off, All the mental disorders attached to your natural personage. The existential question deserves deep analysis, and study. And Prayers most definitely. Who am I when i am stripped off this fake personality costume clown the west is comfortable to see me become? Can I fart loud & my action be humorous or directed at my humanity? Not Judged? Or would I be ostracized for being disgusting? The very nature of civilization is to run away from our nature. WHY? Why can't we be "Natural"? Pick our nose when I want to, sneeze without covid scare stare. Not shave my armpits. Not shower. I mean, me-pure and unadulterated smelly natural me is enough ma ha? But most importantly- I am worried about being "fake". These little civilized habit I pick on my way to growing up, don't talk to strangers, don't smile too much, lots of make up before you leave your home. Don't be fat, or don't be too thin. All this sounds like a lot of work. When stripped off all this little delicacies, I have picked since childhood, for reasons of being 'cool' or being 'civilized'- Who remains? When i am stripped of all this get-up- will you really find the Serial Killer hidden inside me?

 

[maajid20]

Just be natural . Simply dgaf and do what you want as long as its not too much. Other than farting in public and picking your nose in public and not showering everything seems fine .

 

[Sheikh Google]

Auntie you need to lay off the evening shaah when you put the kids to sleep.

 

[Cajiib]

Modern Society has corrupted my natural identity of self. My authentic individuality is disturbed by civilization process of the western world. I feel like here in the western metropolitan, i am not allowed to be myself. I am forced to pick-up polite, acceptable traits to fit in. My vanity has increased into an enormous Ego, and finally into a full blown narcissist. I also blame the literature books i have read since childhood. It has given me a sense of a reality that is distorted. I have no doubt my anxiety is a result of all those hysteria books i read of aristocratic women fainting upon being shocked. The idea of fiction scriptures turning my personality from pure, authentic brilliant child into a brilliant narcissist troll is disgusting. Nevertheless, in the end i am left with the question:


WHO AM I????


The question could be difficult to find an answer to, if you peel off, All the mental disorders attached to your natural personage. The existential question deserves deep analysis, and study. And Prayers most definitely. Who am I when i am stripped off this fake personality costume clown the west is comfortable to see me become? Can I fart loud & my action be humorous or directed at my humanity? Not Judged? Or would I be ostracized for being disgusting? The very nature of civilization is to run away from our nature. WHY? Why can't we be "Natural"? Pick our nose when I want to, sneeze without covid scare stare. Not shave my armpits. Not shower. I mean, me-pure and unadulterated smelly natural me is enough ma ha? But most importantly- I am worried about being "fake". These little civilized habit I pick on my way to growing up, don't talk to strangers, don't smile too much, lots of make up before you leave your home. Don't be fat, or don't be too thin. All this sounds like a lot of work. When stripped off all this little delicacies, I have picked since childhood, for reasons of being 'cool' or being 'civilized'- Who remains? When i am stripped of all this get-up- will you really find the Serial Killer hidden inside me?

There are social rules in every society, not just the west. How are you blaming society if you think you are a narcissist?

Have you ever done a social media break? That could help you discover what you personally like without others influence. There are a lot of people who, like you want to not abide by society’s rules. They do what they want ultimately but are made to feel like weirdos by strangers.

You seem like you know yourself well enough Basra. Where’s this existential crisis coming from all of a sudden?

 

[Basra]

There are social rules in every society, not just the west. How are you blaming society if you think you are a narcissist?

Have you ever done a social media break? That could help you discover what you personally like without others influence. There are a lot of people who, like you want to not abide by society’s rules. They do what they want ultimately but are made to feel like weirdos by strangers.

You seem like you know yourself well enough Basra. Where’s this existential crisis coming from all of a sudden?

I was just venting Hajiyaat--- i was in a mood! I do believe the literature i read in my childhood turn me into a narcissist though. The novels were based on the protagonist/hero/heroine. It was a focus on a leader man or woman and their life adventures. Everything revolved around them. Is it a surprise then the readers deciding they are also 'special' like a leading hero or heroine? That our lives are self centered and anyone in our lives are minor characters? No doubt we are special because our beautiful religion tells us -Mashalaah - but i think novels were the beginning of Me me me Culture! Social media now is even worst.
But i was in a mood ha ha ha ha ha ha

 

[CDG89]

I was just venting Hajiyaat--- i was in a mood! I do believe the literature i read in my childhood turn me into a narcissist though. The novels were based on the protagonist/hero/heroine. It was a focus on a leader man or woman and their life adventures. Everything revolved around them. Is it a surprise then the readers deciding they are also 'special' like a leading hero or heroine? That our lives are self centered and anyone in our lives are minor characters? No doubt we are special because our beautiful religion tells us -Mashalaah - but i think novels were the beginning of Me me me Culture! Social media now is even worst.
But i was in a mood ha ha ha ha ha ha

lmaoooooooooooooooo.

U r a narcissist and so am I but, your writing is a treat!!!!!!

 

[Basra]

There are social rules in every society, not just the west. How are you blaming society if you think you are a narcissist?

Have you ever done a social media break? That could help you discover what you personally like without others influence. There are a lot of people who, like you want to not abide by society’s rules. They do what they want ultimately but are made to feel like weirdos by strangers.

You seem like you know yourself well enough Basra. Where’s this existential crisis coming from all of a s

@Cajiib_girl


When did u change your name huuno? You seem to imply i know myself very well therefore i cannot have an identity crises. U seem to have elevated me unnecessary. By the way, i am not in Social media. Only ones i use is Youtube and Tik Tok like my senior citizens community.

My dear Cajiib it seems i have a problem with u, but i can't put my fingers on what it is. Do u feel the same?

 

[Basra]

lmaoooooooooooooooo.

U r a narcissist and so am I but, your writing is a treat!!!!!!

Thank uuu huuno! I do adore my writing, and way of thinking and expressing myself. If i were not me- i would be a fan of me.

 

[Molotoff]

Thank uuu huuno! I do adore my writing, and way of thinking and expressing myself. If i were not me- i would be a fan of me.

 

[CDG89]

Thank uuu huuno! I do adore my writing, and way of thinking and expressing myself. If i were not me- i would be a fan of me.

Your COVID post is still one of the best posts on here. I revisit when I need a laugh. Someone should compile a list of your greatest posts and call it "Basra Primer"... I will do it on my day off or something lol. It will be my little project. I need some adderall.

 

[Basra]

Your COVID post is still one of the best posts on here. I revisit when I need a laugh. Someone should compile a list of your greatest posts and call it "Basra Primer"... I will do it on my day off or something lol. It will be my little project. I need some adderall.

Do it! I want to grade your project and enjoy it at the same time!