I went outside two times today and I never realized how much better I feel being away from home. I dread every minute i have to step through those doors. Having a narcissistic parent is so hard to deal with. I go through moments of feeling good and then it drops. I have lost some weight and it's still not good enough. Other people's daughters are better than us according to them. I don't get it. My siblings and I do everything for them like paying for the household bills, doing most of the cleaning etc. What more do they want. Everything in my life was controlled for so many years to the point I was hiding myself. I want to be confident and assertive. I want other people to notice this good energy not this depressive dark cloud over me. I want to make friends, find a life partner, and travel someday inshallah. I'm praying on this. I just want to find a support group for other Somalis dealing with this shit. I could use some resources. Caoi.