Excellent Vanta!
There is a famous French philosopher who said "Hell is other people" is based on a play, where three people are confined in a small place where they have nothing left but to judge each other.
So basically, we see ourselves in the eyes of how others see us. Lonely path is good because u will live in your own judgement of yourself without the interfering of others who might have a motive to judge u, for example judging themselves, and projecting it to you, and you unfortunately are only too ready to receive it and internalize it.
At the core of mental illness is a sense of pre occupation with/of oneself while ignoring to remove yourself from yourself. Hence Religion comes in. God has already told you i created you to worship him. Perhaps you are a fallen angel for not obeying.
Which goes back to
@DR OSMAN original point that he is "fallen"
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