Let's philosophize, I love philosophy and spirituality and religion or anything that deals with open-ended questions where no sufficient answer has been provided yet is a real question such as 'why are we here' it's still not answered satisfactorily to the point where 8 billion people agree on why we are here, what's our purpose is another question that is huge open ended question with not much of an answer pleasing billions of people, is there a god or not and so many critical important questions about existence.
Metaphysics is one of my favourite fields. More so then Physics and Mathamatics. I love conspiracies so much also but that could be due to my diagnosis of psychosis. Do you guys know I have schizoprenia? It's been diagnosed today by my psychologist even though he isn't a psychiartist, I was told that my schizophrenia is pretty bad. I hallucinate visually(human beings start to transform literally before my eyes like shape-shift into different creatures and animals or even demons or their faces start to take the shape of masks, Time freezes literally like I don't see the clock ticking anymore, all my surroundings is shape shifting like trees, dogs, animals, it got real bad I actually thought A comet was going to strike earth and I saw it in the sky) I also hear voices from inside myself(I think tupac is talking to me and genghis khan sometimes or I am talking to god or the devil).
Plus I have delusions of grandeur that are ridiculous because I try to explain my hallucinations and voices with this is the devil architecture, god is calling, or at the very bottom of my delusional thoughts is cia and fbi are responsible for my hallucinations and voices to test me on something which I don't know why.
My psycharist though doesn't believe it's schizophrenia but my psychologist is dead-set said you got schizophrenia and all the symptoms are there in your psychosis plus he said I demonstrated that I had it sitting dormant the triggers long before it exploded into a full blown psychotic episode. The good thing is my psychotic episode only last 2-3 weeks when I need to be hospitalized because I stop taking the medications cause I fear getting fat on it. He warned me today and said if you skip it, you brain is going to die the more I relapse into psychosis as a small piece of your brain function will keep disappearing like a bit of memory here, bit of planning there, bit of this and bit of that because psychosis takes its toll on the brain. He said it's like a brain attack similar to a heart-attack and mine is severeeeeeeeeeeee brain attack and not even mild the only good thing is the duration some are stuck with it for life and other can get out of it in a week or two and it's only brief.
So that's why you guys see me half mad on here and then rational, I come on th forum sometimes when I am in psychotic episode and I don't know yet because it all starts subtly and you don't notice at first. However my psycharist doesn't accept it schizophrenia, he says it's anxiety. So I am in the middle now the brain doctor is saying is anxiety, the brain talker is saying it's psychotic shittttttt what u have. It's so hard getting a diagnosis nowadays being pushed around to therapist and then brain doctor and none want to just sit down and work it out between themselves.
That's the doctor story anyways. Wish me luck it's only anxiety cause I hate these medication for psychosis.
Good luck doctor, I hope it doesn't affect your brains because the Fiqi loves reading your posts.
Why not take a second opinion? I keep you in my prayers doctor.
As for the purpose of life, it is mentioned in the Quran. We were created for the sole purpose of worshipping Allah.
I hate derailing topics in the holy sacred development section. But for I'll make an exception. Soo daa doctor
Ka yaaca meesha.
