Some advice would be nice

[cantspeak]

lmao this is hilarious. I'm pretty much the opposite to ya. Like the religion but find it work to pray 5 times a day.

 

[dhegdheer]

I get what you're saying OP, life of a muslim can be so unnecessarily restrictive at times. Just do whatever you want, you can always just label yourself a liberal muslim and go from there

As for you're question. No one abandons everything they were taught from birth all at once, small steps here and there. I stopped praying, I'd eat chicken regardless of whether it was non halal or halal, y'know baby steps.

I didn't leave islam all at once. It was mainly a cumulation of many years of doubts and scepticism until one day i realised I didn't believe. Questioning everything I was taught to do also helped speed up the process, for example; i stopped praying cuz no one is gonna answer my prayers. It's basically like talking to urself

It gets easier after a while lol i remember in the past I never used to listen to music, because of haram, and now I can't leave my house without my ipod

 

[VixR]

The urge or guilt for not praying even though it doesn't make sense is completely normal. And eating during Ramadan when everyone is fasting, and the fake afurs. And the feeling when you try previously "haram" foods and drinks It takes a while to reprogram the program ileen even though I don't believe a single word.